Britney Spears makes ‘soul crushing’ confessions about her dad in new memoir

Britney Spears made heart wrenching confessions about facing body shaming and soul crushing remarks she received as a teenager, in her upcoming memoir, 'The Woman in Me.’

In an excerpt exclusively obtained by PEOPLE, from her forthcoming memoir the Criminal songstress walked down the memory lane to her conservatorship days, imposed by her dad for almost 13 years.

“I’d been eyeballed so much growing up, I’d been looked up and down, had people telling me what they thought of my body, since I was a teenager. Shaving my head and acting out were my ways of pushing back,” wrote the Hold Me Closer singer.

She continued, “but under the conservatorship I was made to understand that those days were now over. I had to grow my hair out and get back into shape. I had to go to bed early and take whatever medication they told me to take.”

“If I thought getting criticized about my body in the press was bad, it hurt even more from my own father. He repeatedly told me I looked fat and that I was going to have to do something about it,” the Toxic singer added.

The ex-wife of Sam Asghari in her memoir blamed her 71-year-old dad for losing the singing and dancing spark.

“Feeling like you’re never good enough is a soul-crushing state of being for a child,” she noted.

The Womanizer crooner added, “he’d drummed that message into me as a girl, and even after I’d accomplished so much, he was continuing to do that to me.”

Britney Spears reflected on being in conservatorship for 13 years:

Spears, while recounting the toll of conservatorship took on her admitted that it made the pop icon a “robot,” and that she felt “stripped” of her womanhood.

“If they’d let me live my life, I know I would’ve followed my heart and come out of this the right way and worked it out,” noted the singer.

The 42-year-old singer added, “Thirteen years went by with me feeling like a shadow of myself. I think back now on my father and his associates having control over my body and my money for that long and it makes me feel sick.”

The Grammy winner were living under conservatorship in 2008, which was in September 2021, after the singer’s attorney asked the court to suspend Jamie.